I choose Happiness regardless..

Dear July; Bad Energy stay far away…

It's July people!!!
It's a new Month

We just experience the end of the first half of 2022, embarking on a journey to the end of 2022.

Phewww how time flies!!

Let me start by wishing you all a Happy New Month and my prayer for this month is that we experience maximum happiness from top to bottom...Amen

Just as you all are making the big plans for this month, just put it in mind that there are some that this same month brings a sour taste and a bitter remembrance - my family, for example, July 1st isn’t a pleasant day as it marks a Year we lost our beloved mother to the cold hands of death - its been a year experiencing life without her, her love, her smile and her scornful looks she gives as a sign of displeasure of demeanour - I miss the sound of her voice whenever she calls me NDIDIAMAKA - (Ndidiamaka is my native name, which means "Patience is Good") - I also miss having this calm spirit knowing someone is praying me, praying for my betterment from a place of motherly love - indirectly her death made me a prayer warrior, those days of relying on Mama’s prayers came to a sad end.

I remember vividly, how every end of the month, she would call and shower prayers on me, telling me the only job she got now, is praying for her children - even on her dying bed, with all the excruciating pain, every night I saw her praying for her children, begging the Almighty to spare her life, so she won’t leave her children Motherless - the fact remains that, she’s with the angels up above the Sky, Resting.

I miss you, Mama Tobe!!

However, amidst the grieving, this July I choose to be happy regardless, I chose nothing less than the soft life that comes with the Month and “Nothing should stress me this July” is the Mantra I have chosen to vibe on each day that comes throughout this month.
So, here is how I plan to enjoy Maximum happiness this July;

1. My happiness Comes First
This July, my happiness is my utmost priority and of colossal importance, I will be waiving off things, people and situations in an attempt to cost me my peace or caused me sleepless nights, I am battling insomnia already, dont come and add yours to it, so no bad vibes will be welcomed - Bad energy stay far away

2. Not sorry, But l will be Selfish
This July, I will be selling Fish, fish that has Self To it ~ Selfish - saw what I did there right? 🤣🤣
The logic to getting the happiness I desire is to be as selfish as I can.
So this July, I won’t be apologising for putting myself first at all times, I will be dishing out more No’s in a platter of gold -to things that aren’t profitable to me rather than trying to fit into it or pleasing others. If My feelings, my concerns and my opinion won’t come first don’t bother inviting me to the gathering or conversations.

3. Be Appreciative
I will be more appreciative especially to the Almighty and to those that have been with me, stuck with me, and been there for me and to those that made life worth living. The first half of the Year had been a roller coaster of struggles - struggled to get a job, struggled to learn new things, struggled to unlearn bad traits and struggled to keep a positive mindset always, amidst those struggles there were friends, family and the Holy Spirit who stuck with me and gave me the bit of Sanity to keep going and at the long run, it was all worth it.

4. Be more expressive of my feelings
This July, I am not leaving room for that Strong girl vibes, the pressure to bury my feelings will be unlearned and I will be more expressive about how I feel and to whom I feel.
'I love you
'Thank you.
'I appreciate you.
'I dont like how you spoke to me.
'I dont like what you did to me.
'If you won’t respect my feelings, we can’t be friends.
'That sounds disrespecting, take it back.
'I am not comfortable with this and no I am readjusting to fit in.

5. Be more Financially Wise
Being independent at an early age taught me financial literacy and how to save and spend my money wisely - I have been good at saving and so far it has paid off positively - but lately, I discover I was lagging on my savings and my finances have been in shambles for quite some time, I was blaming it on the economy not until it did on me I am spending more on things I dont need.

However, In July everything has to be in check at all times and targets have been set - how to meet the targets I have drafted out.

In summary, my July plan is to focus mainly on myself and my happiness, my finance and everything that sparks positively.